Sunday, September 9, 2012

Fighting Depression and Going to the Movies

The last several weeks have been difficult for this writer with MS.  It's normal to run into obstacles while trying to write, but sometimes those obstacles create other more serious obstacles that you may not realize are even there for a while.  In  my case, I didn't realize what was happening until I finally did something about the first obstacle.

I mentioned the little 3 day vacation that my wife and I took last month to Glenwood Springs and Aspen, Colorado.  That last posting was written on my laptop.  It was the last thing accomplished on said laptop.  My battery ran out of juice and because the charger had died, I couldn't even charge it.  The laptop became a symbol of failure.  Every time I looked at it, I wanted to write but knew that  I could not.  I began to get depressed without realizing that I was.  I get some off my inspiration while sitting on my porch and watching people and vehicles pass by.  A thought will spring up in my head and I will want to write about it.  My first thought is to get my laptop and sit here and write my inspiration.  Then, I'd remember,  I can't.  Depression was setting in.

I do have a desktop PC (no, I prefer a PC over Mac) and I would come inside to use it.   But the depression would come inside with me and all I could think about was how my laptop needed a charger.  I spent a lot of time over the next two weeks looking at AC adapters both online and at any store.  What I found online was several sites that offered replacements from $5 to $15.  However shipping charges were $25 to $30.  I could buy one locally for that much, but I couldn;t bring myself to pay that much.  There just had to be a better deal.

I didn't realize it but I was getting caught in this cycle of depression.  It must have snuck in during one of the days that I was having trouble with MS. Then a week ago I had an epiphany. Just order it online and get it over with.  I looked on a site I had not yet gone to and found one for under $20 with free shipping.  I bought it and waited.  It arrived on the third day and I was happy.

Suddenly, I felt my spirites lift and I started remembering things I had wanted to tell y'all.  Yes I typed y'all.  I'm from the south and proud of it.

So, today I felt like writing you guys.  I am partly stoked because of the movies I have seen recently.  I've seen some good movies and I am going to give my thumbs up to these; Hope springs, The Odd Life of Timothy Green, and the most recent one, The Words.

All were very good movies and each may deserve an Oscar nomination for one reason or another.  The one that influenced me the most, though, was  The Words.  It is about a man struggling to become a successful writer.  He meets with all the rejection and disappointment we all deal with and even though he chooses to do the wrong thing, somehow I felt the pain he was dealing with.

So, if you are looking for a good movie to go to, I suggest to you any one of these.  The stories are great and all actors performed admirably.  If you are a writer, like myself, I urge you to go see The Words.